“The sooner you quit something that stinks, the sooner you can find something that doesn’t. Save your hope for that.”

Needless to say, I am binge watching Unbreakable on Netflix and I am loving this show! However, the episode where Lillian gives this beautiful piece of advice and they sing ‘Just go on’, have really hit home for me, indeed hardest thing for me would be to quit, to give up and let go of something, that was never mine to begin with, but I have still wanted and prayed for so long. I definitely do not like to give up. No, sir. But, of late, I have been questioning myself, my love, my loyalty, my truth for this situation. Is it all really worth it?? Don’t I deserve better than this? Am I putting in my hope for something which doesn’t even exist and will never come true? I am willing to put in my 150%, if the situation was even 50% in my favor, but the truth is, it’s NOT, and it will never be! It was a hopeless situation then, it is nothing better now. It amazes me how we as human beings can survive biggest of traumas, and some trivial occurrence can make our world fall apart, but as the song goes, ‘We’ll never stop..we’ll keep moving forward’. A part of me still absolutely refuses to let go, but slowly but surely the veil is coming off, I can see it was not worth ever. It was never my fight to begin with, I am not even sure what I was fighting for. I do like to give my all, and I think I did, of course I made mistakes, but I did the best I could at that given moment from what I knew then, and that’s all I can do.

I have learnt some great lessons, which has made me realize that with all the love I have in me and around me, I deserve more and much more; my heart hurts, but I know it will heal, even if it takes another year or two, because the best is yet to come and I should save my hope for that, and who knows maybe the miracle is right around the corner!