I have a lot of words in my head,

and they are mostly about you,

it’s just when you come to mind,

writing is the only thing I can do.

I know, I don’t have the right to hold you closely,

or be next to you to listen to things you have to say,

I can’t talk to you when I want,

yet in my imagination, you are not far away.

Sometimes I also feel, how lucky it is to be,

that God made you exist at the same time as me.

You’re the first on my mind when I have a news to share,

The first I’d text if only I knew you would be there.

But I keep my distance, not wanting to impose,

Unspoken words, a chapter yet to close.

Ours is the strangest relationship, you see,

At times, I feel you, so close to my core,

My heart beating to your rhythm, wanting nothing more.

But then, in other moments, the distance feels vast,

Passer-by, we become, like some memories of the past.

The unrequited love of mine hangs in the air,

Leaving me wondering, do you even care?

What right do I have, what claim to your heart?

In your vast universe, what’s my part?

I also try to save this heart of mine, from the hurt of last time,

I know we were never bound by love, but your friendship was my song,

Yet you iced me out as if I didn’t belong.

Last time you found love, you left me in the cold,

A silent departure, a story left untold.

This time, if love finds you,

let honesty be your guide,

Share with me, so that in your happiness,

I can take pride.

I love you deeply, in ways words can’t express,

So if you find your forever, I’ll wish you nothing less.

In your life, I find my place unclear,

At least with your honesty, I will not live in fear.

I know, I know, you don’t belong to me,

It’s like you’ve said ‘no’ multiple times,

but it’s also like my soul didn’t hear,

It clings to hope, being irrational, not clear.

The blurry lines between us when we meet don’t help,

I feel a knot in my core, a confusing yelp.

I want to truly be friends, with no feelings in sight,

I repeat that to myself every single night.

Don’t get me wrong, my affinity for you is strong,

I treasure my time with you, but it comes with a cost,

for every second spent, a piece of myself is lost.

But it’s also true that with you, no mask I wear,

I can be myself, in the present, right now, right here.

In a world full of facades, with you, I can be simply true,

A genuine friendship I have towards you,

yet I still wonder, do you feel the same way too?

Also, don’t get me wrong, I know I’m out of line,

These feelings I hold, I know should not defined.

I know I shouldn’t feel this way, a truth I work on every day,

I want to leave, trust me, somewhere far away.

I also know I deserve better,

to be loved and to be cared for,

I hope to find love that gives me much more.

Anyway, enough about you and me,

I will now close this poem.